And here we go again…
Lockdown 2.0 is upon us?! Which let’s face it, we all knew this was coming…be it that we wanted it or not.
Now we’re heading into the winter months I don’t know if this is going to be a good thing or a bad thing…not like everyone is going to be flocking down to the beaches anytime soon. But it’s definitely going to be mentally draining with the cold and dark nights afoot.
I think the main thing we all need to focus on is what we can do to keep ourselves sane. For example, remember to call and Facetime loved ones as much as possible. Look at the bright side of things, like visualising all of your savings chocking up…that is; if you’re not like me, and spend most of your time looking through the Amazon and eBay recommended pages, and clicking that quick buy button. Then proceeding to regret the moment you do it…yet never stopping yourself or returning items. Let’s just add that to the long list of weird fucking annoying issues and traits I own.
My life is currently consisting of going to work, leaving work, thinking about work, cleaning, making dinner, showering, journaling and watching TV before going to bed, waking up and starting the routine all over again. I throw in a bit of creativity and a bath every now and then, you know to spruce it all up a little bit. I actually just finished rewatching all the Marvel films. Thank you, Disney+!
Now I’m onto the Gilmore Girls – uh! You see how boring my life is right now, but we all need a little trashy TV every now and then, don’t we! Thank You, Netflix!
So, I’m about to say something that is probably going to be hated by many, but I actually don’t mind the whole lockdown thing….
Okay, woah! I already hear the inhales of breaths from here, but for me, being bored can be a good thing.
This means no drama, no overthinking, nothing crazy is going on to throw me off the deep end.
Yeah, my motivation isn’t on point at the moment, like fuck me, I have nothing really to write about, except me complaining that I have nothing to write about…see where I’m going here, but I’m happy and content.
Bored, bored, bored, but content.
Recently I have been having the most fucked up dreams too?! Anyone else?!
They are all feeling super realistic and confusing. The other night for example, I was with, THE ex (uh gross), but I was living in the house that I lived in with my other ex, which was completely redecorated to how I would have wanted it, if I had all the money in the world. In this dream, it’s like I knew I shouldn’t have been there, and I kept telling everyone that something wasn’t right and that I didn’t belong. But I was forced to go through the motions of my life anyway. When I work up, I felt so disorientated.
I must have laid there for like 20 minutes contemplating my life, and while being totally weirded out, it made me appreciate where I am right now.
And that’s all we can do right?!
Be thankful for what we have…
My housemate Karl has decided to take this opportunity of lockdown to re-educate himself and has started some courses with The Open University. How fucking awesome is that! I’ve signed up myself, and I want to look at doing some writing courses, as you can see, I desperately need them! Ha!
However, at the moment, myself and Steph have decided to focus more on being artistic. We have said this every year, and never actually do it because you know, pubs! Christmas markets and all-around other things to keep us busy, but this year we’re going to do it! You eager to hear what it is, get ready for your minds to be blown!
We are going to pull up the good old Pinterest and allow are creative juices to flow! Ha, I know Karl’s winning at life right now.
Nevertheless, here’s the thing, if focusing on your education, is what you want to do, that’s brilliant, but if sitting in front of the TV binging and eating your body weight in takeout’s is what you want to do too, that is okay as well.
I’ve said it before, and I will say it again. There is no right or wrong way to deal with the next couple of weeks. Do what makes you happy. Do what keeps you sane. Do not feel bad for not using this time to do all the things you said you would. Who gives a fuck, and don’t listen to anyone that tells you to do differently.
Take their advice. Listen to people that are trying to support and help you, but if your happy and comfortable then that’s all that matters!
Life’s too short to worry about the what if’s, and what could be’s!
So, whatever you are doing, you’ve got this!
Also I will be moving site soon – it’s still a working progress – but you can find it here. Which is also a temporary link, and I still have a lot work still to do. Knowing me, it will probably change a lot before it officially goes live – I will update all link soon, but if you want to check it out so far – and let me know what you think, here you go…